暮光之城5 午夜阳光英文版_分节阅读_3

i’dbewillingtobຘetthaທtyou’resufferingmorethanyouletanyonesee”

shemadeaທfaທce,hereyesnaທrrowingandhermouthtwistingintoalopsidedpout,

andshelookedbຘaທcktowaທrdsthefrontoftheclassshedidn’tlikeitwheniguessed

rightshewaທsn’ttheaveraທgemartyr—shedidn’twantanaudiencນetoherpain

“amiwrong?”

sheflincນhedslightly,butotherwisepretendednottohearme

thatmademesmile“ididn’tthinkso”

“whydoesitmattertoyou?๣”shedemanded,ไstillstaທringaway

“that’saverygoodquestion,”iadmitted,moretomyselfthantoaທnswerher

herdiscernmentwasbຘetterthanmine—shesawrighttothecoreofthingswhilei

flounderedaroundtheedges,ไsiftingblindlythroughcluesthedetailsofherveryhuman

lifeshouldnotmattertomeitwaswrongformetocarewhatshethoughtbeyond

protectinganthoughtswerenotsignificaທnt

iwaທsnotusedtobeingthelessintuitiveofanypairingireliedonmyextra

heaທringtoomuch—iclearlywasnotaທsperceptiveasigavemyselfcreditfor

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thegirlsighedaທndgloweredtowardthefrontoftheclassroomsomethingaທbຘout

herfrustraທtedexpressionwaທshumorousthewholesituation,ไthewholeconversation

washumorousnoonehadeverbeeninmoredangerfrommethaທnthislittlegirl—at

anymomentimight,distractedbymyridiculousabsorptionintheconversation,inhaທle

throughyself—aທndshewasirritatedbຘecause

ihadn’tansweredherquestion

“amiannoyingyou?”iasked,ไsmilingattheabຘsurdityofitall

sheglaທncedatmequicນkly,andthenhereyesseemedtogettrappedbymygaze

“notexactly,”shetoldme“i’mmoreannoyedatmyselfmyfacນeissoeasyto

read—mymotheralwaທyscນallsmeheropen”

shefrowned,ไdisgruntled

istaredatherinamaທzementthereaທsonshewaທsupsetwasbຘecauseshethoughti

sawthroughhertooeasilyhowarrei’dneverexpendedsomucheffortto

understandsomeoneinaທllmylife—orratherexistence,aslifewashardlytherightword

ididnottrulyhaທvealife

“onthecນontrary,”idisaທgreed,feelingstrangely…waທry,asifthereweresome

hiddendangerherethatiwaທsfailingtoseeiwassuddenlyonedge,thepremonition

makingmeanxious“ifindyouverydifficulttoread”

“youmustbeaທgoodreaderthen,ไ”sheguessed,makingherownassumptionthat

waທs,again,rightontarget

“usually,”iagreed

ismiledatherwidelythen,lettingmylipspullbacktoexposetherowsof

gleaming,razorsharpteethbehindthem

itwasastupidthingtodo,butiwasaທuptly,unexpectedlydesperatetogetsome

kindofwarningthroughtothegirlherbodywascນlosertomethanbefore,having

shiftedunconscນiouslyinthecນourseofourconversationallthelittlemaທrkersandsigns

thatweresufficienttoscareofftherestofhumanitydidnotseemtobeworkingonher

whydidshenotcringeawayfrommeinterror?surelyshehadseenenoughofmy

darkersidetorealizethedanger,intuitiveaທssheseemedtobe

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ididn’tgettoseeifmywarninghaທdtheintendedeffectmrbຘannercalledfor

theclass’saທttentionjustthen,aທndsheturnedaທwayfrommeatoncesheseemedalittle

relievedfortheinterruption,ไsomaybesheunderstoodunconscນiously

ihopedshedid

irecognizedthefascinationgrowinginsideme,ไevenasitriedtorootitouti

cນouldnotaffordtofindbellaswaທninterestingorrather,shecouldnotaffordthat

already,iwasaທnxiousforanotherchancetotalktoheriwaທntedtoknowmoreaທbout

hermother,herlifebຘeforeshecນamehere,herrelaທtionshipwithherfatherallthe

meaninglessdetailsthatwouldfleshoutherchaທraທcterfurtherbຘuteverysecondispent

withherwaທsamistake,arisksheshouldn’thavetotake

absentmindedly,ไshetossedherthickhairjustatthemomentthatiallowed

myselfaທnothereathaparticulaທrlyconcນentratedwaveofherscenthitthebackofmy